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wrapping up the winter season | warm your belly meatloaf

Today was filled with a run to the good ol’ fashion laundromat. Matthew and I are still waiting to buy our washer/dryer. We are hoping to have that checked off our list this weekend. This is the third week I’ve gone to the laundromat, and while it’s kind of tough dragging along a very enegertic toddler, it gives you a new appreciation for laundry, the tending to your clothes and and these items we forget to give TLC to. With the fast-pace lives we lead, sometimes we toss everything together and go. Today brought me back to when I use to help my grandmother with our laundry in her old, blue machine. We’d run the clothes through a ringer after the cycle and then we’d set up outside with our basket and clothes pins, lining one by one to dry so peaceful in the breeze. Though it took longer, our clothes were cared for and we appreciated them. It was a beautiful bonding time between us  And that is exactly how it was for me and Owen this afternoon. It was delightful. 

But this post was definitely not about laundry. When we came home, I whipped up this amazing meatloaf that I just had to share. You won’t be let down! I wanted one last “fill up your belly with warm goodness” kind of meal now that Spring is here (Yay!) and this hit the spot exactly. We paired it with brussle sprouts, green beans, and baked potatoes. Enjoy!

Mamajbirdy’s Meatloaf

What you’ll need:

2 pounds ground beef

1 egg

4 pieces of bread

2 handfuls of Cheez-Its

1 tsp sea salt

2 tsp cracked black pepper

2 tsp Sazon seasoning

3 garlic cloves, minced

1 red onion, chopped

1 cup (+) Sweet Baby Ray’s BBQ sauce

1 tbp turbonado sugar

Combine the ground beef, egg, salt, pepper, garlic, onion, BBQ sauce, and Sazon seasoning in a large bowl. Break the bread apart into small pieces with your hands and add it to the mixture. Crush the Cheez Its into crumbs and add this as well. Add this to a greased baking dish. Top with extra BBQ sauce and sugar. Bake at 375 for 1-1.5 hours. 
What is your favorite comfort meal? 

x,

mamajbirdy 

Natural & Holistic

when our hearts ache with anxiety


There’s been a lot of times lately, where my heart just feels like it cannot hold more. Hold more love. Hate. Pain. Anxiety. Doing anything requires double the amount of energy because I have to spend so much time in my own mind. And forget about trying to have anyone understand. And in the rare case that they do, hold on to them ever so gently.

And that’s the hard part. That when our hearts ache our journey can feel so alone. Like we’ve climbed to the top of the mountain just to scream our lungs out to the vast emptiness.

And you don’t understand. The anxiety. Feeling afraid, physically and mentally, to do something you know rationally shouldn’t ache you this way.

Try harder they tell you. You’re suppose to be an adult they tell you. They tell you this and they tell you that. But they never ask why. They never ask why. They never ask, “are you okay?”

I experienced a couple unusual moments after my son was born. I battled a few panic attacks. And let me tell you, I thought I was going to die. It’s something I’ll never forget.

My heart raced and I was shaking. I experienced more fear in those few moments than I ever had. I paced. And then I paced some more. I got my headsets out to listen to music but with no previal. I felt weak. Like everything was closing in on me. And you know what I wanted? I just wanted someone to hold me and tell me it was going to be okay. 

I want you to know that it’s okay. That everything is going to be okay. That you are strong and independent and that you’ve had a rough journey, some trying times, but they’ve shaped you and they’ve carried you. They drifted you like a leaf in the wind. Twisting and turning. Twirling at times, like a beautiful ballet dancer. 

But those times also brought you a lot of baggage of anxiety. A suitcase overflowing at the steams, screaming, let me out! 

You’re going to find someone to share your soul with. You’re going to find that person who is going to hold you at these times and tell you, with a giant bear hug, every single thing is going to be okay.

Because that’s what I believe our journey is all about. Finding ourselves in unusual ways and sharing ourselves with someone that makes our soul happy. And you’re world is going to fall into place.

“It’s not the load that breaks you down, it’s the way you carry it” Lou Holtz

However you carry it. It’s okay. And when you find someone to share it with, you’ll feel light as a feather.

Take cover, when your heart aches. But don’t run away. Be strong. Because you’re going to make it through this like you always have. 

xx mamajbirdy

praying for love & happiness! Mama to mama!